And I often want to. I just don’t always share. I don’t want to share enough to write a craft blog I know that. But I’m writing about the task I’m about to partake in because it is for my baby.
I’m making cloth wipes.
Yes I could buy them but there’s other things I want to make for MochaBean so I might as well get the practice in on some wipes. I’ll maybe take some action shots, but either way I’ll shall the finished product. I struggle with anxiety and it’s been amplified with this baby. I just….every decision is thought and double thought and examined over and over and over. Being able to prepare things for baby with my own two hands helps out a lot. Now I just have to balance the need to do with a decent length list. Don’t want to bite off more than I can chew!
Fear stops me from doing a lot of things. But with the Solstice and then the New Year I feel this urge to do something different. Not necessarily to be better but to switch the game up. There’s a variety of things I’ve always wanted to do that I’ve let fear hold me back from. And I don’t want to live half a life anymore. I don’t want to constantly second guess myself or think about things I should have done…I just want to do things. I want to live life authentically.
I can make no promises as to how pretty this will end up but I hope you enjoy reading about it. I’m going to do a series of blog posts called Moving Towards Change and they’ll touch on the things I’m trying to tweak. I don’t know how this is different from my wish list, or how this isn’t a 2012 Resolutions Post, or which post (my wish list or the MTC series) has more likelihood of actually coming to fruition….I just know all those things are true. Take my word on this.
First thing up: My crafting business. Not only actually getting it going but resisting the urge to give everything out for free. Fingers crossed I don’t lose friends over it. I feel like for what I’d charge the quality is there but I have to continue to find the motivation to actually make stock, stop being such a chickenshit and put myself out there AND limit the number of gifts I give out. I have a lot of anxiety about making people upset with me but the good thing is a lot of my friends have their own hobby businesses and they actually manufacturer things that I want. They’re reasonable people who I think would be open to trades but I’ll never know if I don’t ask now will I? Also, touching on the motivation point, I have to make it a priority. My other responsibilities will suck all of the time out of my life if I let them. And since it’s MY time….why don’t’ I just take it back?