How do things like the Elmo Scandal even happen?

So. The puppeteer behind Elmo, Kevin Clash, has been accused twice in a month of inappropriate sexual conduct with a minor. The first alleged victim has recanted, taken a large settlement and stated that they were an adult when the actions took place. He’s now stating that he was forced into this agreement and he wants out. These sentiments are coming about after a second man has come forward and stated he had a relationship with Kevin Clash while he was still a teen and he’s just now discovering ill mental effects from the experience.


Anytime issues like pop off I have so many questions. When I feel like I’ve been wronged….the severity of the wrong determines how much I’m willing to let it go. I have to wonder how deep something would have to cut me that I would want vindication but not go through with it. I can be shy or easily nervous so if I step up to address something like that…the amount of strength that it would take out of me? I’m not sure I could go back from that. These individuals are adults now so there’s no parents involved. But even now I love Bambina with everything there is in me. There’s no amount of money that would make me walk away from someone who hurt her and just let them live life as usual. If it was truly affecting her life to the point where it was best to drop a suit and take a settlement I’d use the money to make sure this never happened to another child. I could let my child fall back and regroup and live her life, but I would not rest. I just…can’t see it.


I’m dismayed that there are people who are greedy enough and deceitful enough that every declaration of abuse can’t be taken 100% seriously. But to act like people don’t ever cry wolf; whether it’s to be hurtful, or to gain money, or simplly to crush someone’s career or spirit; is just childish. It’s burying your head in the sand. People lie and they do it for dumb reasons. They don’t care about who their lies hurt. And when people lie about something like this they don’t just hurt the people they lie on. They hurt the people that have to come behind them and tell their story and fight to be believed. But they just don’t care. Period.


I have my doubts about the validity of some of the things said in this ordeal. But it’s not for me to judge. The sad thing is if it isn’t real, there’s no undoing what has been said. His career is tarnished. Forever. And if this has a negative impact on Sesame Street, then a great many of America’s children have lost all for the sake of money. That’s a horrifying, terrible, sad thing. I hope that if investigations prove that it’s true, the alleged victims find some kind of justice. If they’re false I hope they suffer consequences for destroying someone’s life work.


I Didn’t Like My Kid Today

So. Title pretty much says it all. We went to Water Country USA. It’s a pretty decent waterpark. He was manipulative, mouthy and inappropriate. I sort of feel like even though he can’t really read he can sense we’re running out of time and he going back to where he has no rules or boundaries. Like internally he just doesn’t see the point in following our rules anymore.

It’s heart breaking and frustrating at the same time. This whole…thing is crazy. It’s a huge stir up in my life but I go through it gladly. It’d…it’d just be nice to go in public ONE. TIME. without him thinking it’s okay to grab his penis and smile at people while he does it.
(and no he doesn’t have to pee he just likes to hold it) I wish the judge could see what we see and realize he’s in danger where he is. If he gets to the point where he’s in juvie or jail or a psych ward…my husband will be devastated. And as selfish as it is….when he’s hung up on his kids it takes him away from our future. It leaves me hanging alone while he shuts down or us scrambling to handle fall out. Neither of which are conducive to having a life and making a family. I feel like I’m in stasis.